Tell Me Again!

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Tell me again,

You say you love her,

What is that you love in her?

Would it be her supple breasts

that pin points your fantasy?

Would it rather be

her crushed petals of lips?

Would it be for her soul searching eyes

that kicks you in the gut? 

or maybe its the body that

satisfies the lust of your devil.

Or maybe, in a wildest of chances,

Maybe it is for the woman she is.

The woman that struggles 

to make her space.

The one you seldom see 

In the freckles across her cheeks.

The one that would give you her soul, 

for the price of your love.

Tell me again,

You say you love her,

What is that you love in her?

Perplexed

Longing swells in me

Like they never had...

His strokes on my body, splits fire

Hot lava runs in my vein...

Eye lids flutters and then close

His lips fuses with mine

His words of endeavor 

Like electric sparks...

Slowly they courses over me

The breeze singing, 

Of passion so profound.... 

Minutes tricks by, forgotten...

Love is sweet, a wait so deep...

Auspicious and royal

For it makes you feel serene

Fire and ice mixed so well

And in me they blast

In him I dissolve

In him I am lost...

Drugged by the sweetness of his kiss

Paralyzed by the softness of his touch 

And aroused by the tenderness of his eyes!!

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Molding of love

Lips lubricated by love

caresses mine....

Eyes twinkling with promise

of a carnal pleasure, burns a hole in me...

The feathery touch of his arms

leaves a trail of fire in the wake.

Each stroke one after the other...

A wave of pleasure engulfs me...

A hunger, A thirsts to quench...

breathless, quivering, needy

i lay there motionless...

My tooth sink into the tender flesh of his...

a muon, soft and silent

echoes around the room...

slowly, but surely

we fit into perfect harmony...

A connection of the souls

it establishes...

Strong, and forever it will stay..

♥♥Anticipation♥♥

The breeze of the eve

Blows over me, softly...

The dazzled daffodils

Dances around the wild...

Caught off guard, I smiled

As thoughts of him slowly 

Descended down upon me

Like a humming bird's

My heart fluttered...

 Mermaids of feelings

Crept over me...

Light as a kite my heart

Soared towards the sky

Waiting to see the beloved face

I sat among the Cyprus...

My lips quavering

As the reminiscence of his kisses flashed

My arms anticipated him...

To hold him once again....

To feel him close like I always do...

To feel the heaven that I knew waited...

A chain of giggles reputed in me

When thoughts of time we spend together

Ran around, wild...

Closing my eyes...

I sat there,

Waiting for the guy I fell in love with...

In His Arms

As the twilight befalls them

they are enclosed in their own world.

the warm embraces,

the sizzling kisses.

the silent whisper of breaths.

His hands moves over her,

a silent quaver of anticipation.

his eyes behold her's,

filled with promises..

And as the night darkens they are lost 

in the profoundness of the night.

He moves, and, as if, by

an invisible force, she responds...

And slowly his warm wet lips on her's

and tiny bubbles of pleasure ruptures in her.

She is lost in his touch

in his kiss and in himself...

She don't feel alone anymore

she is discovered...

in his arms, reborn...

like the hawk that gained the freedom

she flies towards eternity...

Behold, my love!

Somewhere somehow someday I'll meet you

To Claim the heart that is mine for sure. . .

The day is not far, as it always was

Is what my heart seems to whisper all the while...

Amid the mist that floats in the sky

A ray of hope shines through. . .

Slight, thought it is, weaving through the fog.

Slow and steady, it surely comes to me. . .

Eyes, impatient to behold you,

Heart, to find its match at last,

Soul to fit into the other perfectly

And then mine ears, to hear you!

Impatient is what I am 

To set my sight on you, as I would.

And then my arms to hold my world 

To complete the circle that 

Starts on the stars and ends on the earth...

♥You♥

In this world of rush and roll,
I seldom find the reason 
to go on without feeling a numbness. . . 
All it demands is your voice,
and suddenly I feel alive. . . ♥♥♥ 
What is that in your voice 
that creates magic
in and around me??!
I wonder at this pace of time. . .

♥Love♥

♥♥Well believe me i have found love,
      in this small world. . . 
      It was not with my ex. . . 
      nor was it with my next. . . 
      It was simply inside me all the while. . . 
      waiting to be found ♥♥

♥Adieu♥

Adieu tears and adieu pain!

Its time for love and Happiness!

The marks of tears are no more seen,

The smiling face is all  you see..

The darken clouds are no more there.

The sun shine, warm and bright..

Sleepless nights are no more around,

Sweet dreams all the way...

The past is gone like a comet,

The future is all bright like a star...

Broken

Later when time fell off and days grew colder, they kept drifting apart... Once in a while though they thought, 'Hah, But I miss her', 'Hah, but I miss him'. 


But neither found the courage to go back to each other.... Maybe it was guilt or ,maybe pride that kept them from each other... But whatever it was, the crack grew as the days sped. 


From 'Hi', 'Hello' to cold glances to ice cold silence and finally they could no more bear being in the same room...


They wanted to reach out, pull the past back, to put each others hearts together...  But the pride, that was a living thing, were crawling inside of them and keeping them from reaching out...


And nothing was left to do but the inevitable and they drew apart forever... Never to be back again....

A silent promise

Holding someone's arms 

as you navigate around the world

 is like telling them 

you will always be there with them,

 no matter how the road turns out to be....

 A silent promise that speaks volumes....

A letter to yesterday

Last Night, Crushing out the waste

With over trembling hands

I sat to write a letter

Aye, A letter to yesterday

Reckoned or unreckoned to a

Yesterday, excepted its seclusion.

And thus I began The letter,

 Aye a letter to yesterday!

'Dear yesterday' and thus I

addressed the past with resignation.

And  I wrote as forth..

Why were you so unfair...

Why did you make a pandemonium?

Was it all a play for you?

Why didn't you stop when I let him go?

Oh, he owns my heart! He owns my soul...

Oh, he owns my heart! He owns my soul...

 Life wasn't fair, so wasn't you.....

You say if all flowers were roses

Then what beauty in a garden...

But oh yesterday you dint even let me be a weed!

Last Night, Crushing out the waste

With over trembling hands

I sat to write a letter

Aye, A letter to yesterday

Reckoned or unreckoned to a

Yesterday, excepted its seclusion.

And thus I began The letter,

 Aye a letter to yesterday!

'Dear yesterday' and thus I

addressed the past with resignation.

And  I wrote as forth..

Pain and Regrets!

Everything has a beginning and an ending. When relating a story we all begin it with, 'once, when i was...', etc., So here is how my story, the real one, begins...


This is not in an 'once upon a time' fashion or a 'long time back' thing. Its rather a very new one, like the latest trend. To be frank it happened just few days back! The day when i realized what it means to achieve some thing!


I am not taking about getting gadgets or any of the stuffs that some people value. I am taking about getting admitted to one of the Top rated law collages in India. 


When one of my friend mentioned law as a profession for me, I laughed at him. But, right now, from where I stand there is no other professions in the world for me except law.( Its laughable). I gave the CLAT 2011 exam with no seriousness and full of over confidence. I din't bother to check the question paper or  attend any  coaching ( i never bother to inquire about any coaching centers either) So that is how i went to attend the exam. But what i saw at the exam center gave me quite a shock. With hundreds of highly trained students, I felt like a numb, But not so much (I still had my over confidence).  The question paper was another shock, but my stupid stub born pride din't let me think of anything but getting in the NUALS. 


Two weeks after the exam the results came. I score 79 marks with 9326 rank. For a student with no coaching to begin with, it was not bad either. But it was no where good to get me into national law collage. Yet my stupid pride din't let me feel bad. I hoped for a seat in reserved category. But alas, they had just 6 seats with 11 students and me being 10th. It bought a crack in my pride. I felt like this is not going to be anywhere near easy. Two days later a notification was again updated in the website about a few vacant seats and candidates who are interested in seeking admission to NUALS must attend the counselling with full preparation to pay the fees on being granted admission. My hopes reached the 7th sky.  And Heart full of hopes and eyes full of dreams I set out for my destination.  But what i never knew was that the original intend of god was some thing else....

By the time i reached there my anticipation was so high! But all it took was just one  look inside the counselling hall to realize that the I am indeed standing on an egg shell. But my heart was not ready to quite. I registered at the counter and went to find a  place in the crowed. But nothing is not that easy. It took them almost 3 & half hours to decide. The longest 3 and half hours of my life. With tension ebbing from the crowed I tried to get lost in my own world. I kept calling and messaging my friends who gave me their full support and prayer and wishes ( Special thanks to them!)  It was during those three hours that I realized the momentum of the thing I was just going to achieve. 


Its said that the fruit of patience is sweet.. but in my case it just din't happened to be so.... after the wait they finally announced the students selected. And there it went down.. every single of my hope... LIKE A SAND CASTLE IN THE WAVES..... The waves left nothing behind.... I was totally broken. But something else made me ashamed of my self.... of my incapability of achieving this....It was nothing but the face of my FATHER after the realizing that I am not in..... I'll never forget the pain in his face... the tears in his eyes that he never bothered to shed.... I left like nothing.... I thought about everything I have done... everything i didn't do..... I felt like I deserved it..... If god has taken me down then and there I would have went without any objection... It was when i realized what it means to live.....My own pain and guilt with my father's pain combined inside me and made an havoc of everything inside and outside of me....


It will take me eons to look in my father's eyes again with out feeling a little of the pain....

But my all so sweet father, all he said was, 'Its okay darling, we still have next year or try for Kerala Entrance. I am sure you'll get through...'

Memories Of A Dream

Last night I was disturbed... It took me long to fall into the obligation of sleep. I knew this for sure because I was staring at the bright clock in the dark room. It was well before 1 AM. I knew something was bothering me but i couldn't see what it was. I concentrated on my inner voice, but i dint hear anything... I turned around the bed wishing for the peace of sleep to find me... And finally I took my mobile, plugged the ear phone and set to hear some melodies....


The next thing I knew was the sound of my mom calling me, 'Wake up. wake up'. the fear in her voice or the coldness of her awoke the usually lazy me in an instant. I looked into her face. In the bright light of the florescent lamp, I saw the tears flowing down her eyes. I felt an odd kind of pain seizing my soul... After a moment I found my voice and asked her, 'Mama what happened?'  Her answer was more tears that squeezed my heart more. 'Mama, tell me what happened?' I shook  her. And in her tears all she managed was a single word, 'DAD......'.For a moment I was stuck in place. I felt the blood leaving my face and the coldness wrapping around me....


I ran to my dad's room.... Did I hit the sofa? I don't remember....All i  remember is the cold, pale, lifeless body of my dad lying on the bed.... I heard someone howling, and realized it was my own voice... Suddenly the force to balance gravity was no more in me..... I dint feel myself slipping down... I didn't feel the tears falling down.... I dint feel the coldness of the floor below me....I dint hear the sounds escaping me. I don't know how much time I sat like that... I wasn't aware of anything other than the fact that my dad is no more. The foundation on which I build my world is no more there... I felt like being crushed... I felt like being teared apart... The person I loved and respected more in the world is no more there.... I couldn't imagine my world anymore.... It doesn't exist....I don't exist... I felt my vision getting blurred...


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I woke up with a rush.. For a minute, I dint know what was happening. I shook my head thrice before I cleared my vision. my eyes were staring at my book self. I turned around but found nothing unusual. I checked the time and it was 7 in the morning.


I realized I was just dreaming... I couldn't stop the sigh that left me. I got out of bed and ran to the living area where my dad sat reading the morning news paper. For a minute I couldn't stop the single drop of tear that slipped from my eyes.... I don't remember how long I  stood there looking at him before he saw me and asked me ' Oh, what happened? You woke up early today'. 


I just smiled at him and went to sit with him........    

  

Where are my thoughts?

Where are my thought?
I wounder how they slipped!
was it on the person
whom I loved the most?
was it on the person
Whom expired last night?
Was it on the person
who was my best friend?
or was it on the person
who had wounded me the most?
I wounder, lying on the bed of grasses.
Where are my thought?


Maybe it is on the sun,
That shines so bright.
Maybe it is on the moon,
That lightened my nights
Maybe they are on the, 
raindrops dropping down the mat.
Or maybe on the wind,
that is caressing my chest.
I wounder lying on the bed of grass
Where are my thoughts?

LOVE